Man I Miss My Benefits

I had a "good" job for over 3 years. Acceptable pay, great hours, a few cool supervisors but best of all, I had BENEFITS!!! Yes, the blessed "b" word and they were better than Smirnoff Tuscan Lemonade. Anyways, as a result of the "recession" and "economy" my employer started laying off and firing people for any minuscule reason they could find and lil ol me was caught up in the crossfire.
Now my job WAS high stress so the loss of it wasn't exactly detrimental but damn if I don't need those benefits right now because this clinic/medicaid shit is for the birds. Don't get me wrong, I grew up poor and if it wasn't for the free vaccinations and check ups from said clinics/medicaid I wouldn't be alive and if I was I'd probably have some sort of limp leg or something. I'm thankful for the services provided now and then that were rendered at clinics around the city, but as a child, you don't notice the bad service, long as hell waits, low quality equipment and facilities, snobby attitudes from workers who probably get serviced at the same free clinic, dirty stares from other patients who look at you like you have all the STD's and kids in the world when really you just have a bladder infection.
I mean, I really didn't want to come to a clinic but my options were go there, go to the ER and get a gazillion dollar bill or die so I figured I'd go there and try to get through all that with as much ease as possible BUT THAT SHIT RIGHT THERE NIGGA would send the wrong or right person to jail without a fight. I mean everybody who visits a clinic isn't a broke, unemployed, welfare recipient, mother of 6 crack smoker, but even if they were does it mean it's okay to treat them like nothing?
I don't know if I'm upset with medicaid, free clinics or the fact that I had to go from a private doctor to a clinic but I do know that I was there too damn long and the service was horrible on top of the fact that it looked like 1986 in there. I mean, I really did think about taking up my other options but I didn't need another bill coming to house and I can't die because I have too much shit to do so somebody needs to do something because the next time I get sick, I'll cure myself before I go through this again...